The Narcissist's subconscious

If you are a Filipino, you might have heard the song called ''Di ako fuckboy'' by Jroa. I could never forget when he sang it to me during a videocall at the time when I've only known him for a few months. I thought it was kinda cute and I believed that he really meant the song.. It meant ''I am not a fuckboy/ playboy and the only thing I can offer is my heart.'' That song was kinda cute to me more than a year ago. But now, all I have is disgust whenever I remember the look on his face while singing it. Because little did I know, he sang the same song to the new girl he's lying to. And the only thing the girl said to me after discovering that was, ''Oh my God, are we dealing with a psychopath?'' he sang that song to me even though he already has a long history of cheating with his previous relationships before we even met. He sang that same song to the new girl even though he has cheated on me multiple times. I guess it was his subconscious trying to lie to himself and trying to hide what kind of a man he really is. And how he will flip the story and play stupid of all his actions.